PENSIVE all the time and wish to go back in time. i can't even do anything because of this feeling. this year is the most severe year among all the year i've been. why oh why, is it all this i have to bear for the rest of this 2012 year. ugggghh. from the beginning of this year i already felt hurt, is this all the reply to all the people who hate me or what put revenge on me ?i already felt like this before this year but i dont know how did i do to still survive and forget about the worst past and then still can laugh loudly. ohhhhggg !!how i hate my life this now, now i really feel empty and zeror 000000000000000. SIFAR SIFAR SIFAR.
where do i can get the happiness back ??can i buy that to others ?? jokes may look fun and laughfull but i can't stop thinking, thinking, thinking. and the last thing i think is ..
i think that one thing i can do is CHANGE. thats the solution.:'(